White heart
by: emjozar
The wound inside me starts to bleed,
It goes slowly, it hurts indeed.
Breathing is not easy, I still want to live!
I’m almost dead, will you believe?
Moments passed, I fell asleep,
Sorrowful stories was left on my lips,
I want to shout and stand up with my knees,
But I can’t even move any of my fingertips.
New day came and I woke up,
I’m feeling so weary but then I dressed up,
I walked thru the hill and rested myself on the top,
I can see everything as I can see the world map.
While resting, I closed my eyes,
I can feel my tears as I can feel my heart cries,
After several hours, I gradually opened my eyes,
I saw myself, sitting down the hill, beside the tree where it lies.
I cannot accept the reality that I’m about to depart,
I was so sad, leaving myself far apart,
I didn’t even feel to be loved by someone near to my heart,
I died, it ends, and leaves a book of memories from my white heart.
Isolated
by: emjozar
I started to let go of everything,
Leaving myself alone for nothing,
Thinking that I might have something,
But then it kills me from within.
I don’t know where to go,
My heart doubts my alter ego,
I can’t believe that I let them go,
Leaving myself to somewhere I don’t know.
I feel so alone and I just want to scream,
I want people to hear the sounds from within,
I want to let them know what I’m feeling,
So that I can be able to feel the air that’s so relieving.
I can’t talk anymore because I am now muted,
I can’t cry anymore because I am now blinded,
I can’t walk no more because I was halted,
And now, where is life? I’m isolated.
But then I’m glad that i can still think and write it down… Goodnight.
Infinite Shadow
by: emjozar
Restless wind blows unevenly.
The rain drops very quickly.
The shadow of a man remained in misery.
The unpredictable space was left unconsciously.
Time passes by,
Still, the inevitable sorrow is nearby.
Every single piece of the cloud rolls by,
But the awful storm didn’t lie.
People’s very own outer space is limitless,
Its stars burns from different places.
People lived with their unique faces,
Life goes like a shadow’s traces.
One time, a light comes out from the window,
Little stories and poems are driven out of his ego.
Different colors appeared from wrecked rainbow,
Every single breathe has its infinite shadow.
Why? Why these two aspects are directly proportional to each other? The answer simply goes like this, physical is for the body, intellectual is for the mind, emotional is for the heart and for the mind, and spiritual goes with the heart, the mind, the body, the soul.
If you’re lacking with your spiritual aspect you’re maybe weak in physical and intellectual aspects but too weak with your emotional aspect and it’s simply because they both have the heart. The heart gives life to a man and the heart allows you to control your body and to control your mind but never to control your soul because the soul must be the one to control your heart. I believe that a good soul results to a good heart!
As of now, I can say that I’m lacking with my spiritual aspect that’s why I’m losing my emotional and slowly losing my physical and intellectual aspects. I’m a chess player and the game of chess needs these four aspects of a man, it needs spiritual in order accept everything on the game and to have satisfaction to whatever the result of the game may be. It needs physical aspect to be comfortable while playing the game. It needs the intellectual aspect so much because thinking of the best moves is the main focus of the game. Hence, it needs emotional but in a positive way, what I mean is the game of chess needs a positive emotion because sometimes a negative emotion tends to destroy our thinking and definitely results to lose a single game. Nowadays, when I play chess it took hard for me to think of the right moves because I’m getting weak with these four aspects of a man. Chess is like life, so If I’m getting worse with it, I probably getting worse with my life too. Hehehe. Sounds so amusing right? But it’s oh so true.
I’m too weak now with my emotional aspect for some very private reasons and as I said before I’m slowly getting weaker with physical and intellectual aspects. Maybe I have to work more for my spiritual aspect to save these three aspects because as I can see “the more I control things, the more I lose control.” All i need is “the peace of mind“.
I would like to thank my dad. We talked this early 6 o’clock in the morning. I woke up early because I can sleep no more, and then when he woke up we started to talk about these things. I’m glad because he understands me. Thanks dad! You’re the best!
I hope that sooner or later, I’ll be okay and be just fine. There’s only one thing on my mind now and it goes this way, “I know that God will help me through all of these things.” God bless 
Sleep
by: emjozar
The Cold night have ended,
My broken heart haven’t mended,
Lonely melodies ascended,
Every simple nap was disregarded.
I was so afraid last night,
Afraid that love would have started a fight,
I felt so sad for I wasn’t able to see the light,
I can’t find the answers, and now I can’t sleep tight.
I can’t sleep for I can still remember the happiness being with her,
But then I can’t even speak because I don’t want to hurt her,
I never thought that I would wound a brother,
It hurts so badly, how can I recover?
How long will it take for me to know the truth?
How can I express that I love her without any proof?
Am I going to ignore this feeling?
Am I really awake or just truly dreaming?
God vs. Science
A science professor begins his school year with a lecture to the students, “Let me explain the problem science has with religion.” The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.
“You’re a Christian, aren’t you, son?”
“Yes sir,” the student says.
“So you believe in God?”
“Absolutely.”
“Is God good?”
“Sure! God’s good.”
“Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?”
“Yes.”
“Are you good or evil?”
“The Bible says I’m evil.”
The professor grins knowingly. “Aha! The Bible!” He considers for a moment. “Here’s one for you. Let’s say there’s a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?”
“Yes sir, I would.”
“So you’re good…!”
“I wouldn’t say that.”
“But why not say that? You’d help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn’t.”
The student does not answer, so the professor continues. “He doesn’t, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?”
The student remains silent.
“No, you can’t, can you?” the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.
“Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?” (more…)
You
My wonderful day starts with a simple smile from your face,
Everytime I look at you, I feel simply amazed
For me you’re the blessing and God’s grace,
You always make me happy in your simple ways.
Hours passed and the day turned to night,
Still, I can’t take you away from my sight,
How can I fall asleep if I can’t forget the sweetest looks in your eyes?
It’s an expected thing that you’re the reason why my night becomes bright.
The night have gone and the next day came,
My whole day was never be the same,
For I was not able to see you and all I can feel is pain,
But this pain won’t stop me from loving you, again and again.
It wasn’t easy to have this emptiness in me,
Being with you is where I want to be,
You’re the reason of this sudden misery,
But then you’re the completion of my story.
I made this one together with Ms. Shaine Maala while we’re chatting this late afternoon. It was fun to make a single poem with two minds at work. We made it just easy and just quick. I think it took just 20 minutes or less to finish this one. Hehehehehe..
The Unsaid
by emjozar
It was winter when I found you,
It was summer when I got to know you,
It was an accident that you’ve got to know me too,
Now tell me, is it also an accident that I fell inlove with you?
Our place seemed to be so far away,
I can feel the pain whenever I try to think of you every single day,
I can’t find any words and reasons to stop you from staying away,
But I’m so unfortunate because it have to go this way.
I always wanted to be with you,
I’m also hoping that you feel the same way too,
But I think it’s near to impossible for you to love me too,
But then again, it was meant and there’s nothing I could ever do.
I have an unsaid and tricky emotion,
I will never ever try to state this in motion,
I love you, this is my heart’s proclamation,
It was left in the air, when you went in different destination.
I wonder where she is right now… hehehehe.. 
When I was young, I live my life without knowing my direction, without knowing my purpose and without even knowing who I am until one day I found out that everything has it manuscript that is basically known as a manual. A manual is a little document that indicates the uses of a certain object. It says what the object is, how to use it and how to prevent it from breaking.
Little by little I learned to understand these simple truths that if every single and little thing has it manual, people must have their own manual too and it’s none other than The Holy Book of Life, The Holy Bible.
The bible is the people’s way to righteousness, without it our life would become so miserable. It was said that it’s better to live with a Bible alone than to live in a mansion without a Bible, for the mansion only gives shelter while the Bible gives Life, true life, everlasting life…
Have you ever read the Bible? Have you ever tried to look at your own document of Instructions? Have you ever known who you are and what you must do? These are the question that’s so intriguing
Some of the people nowadays uncertainly doubts the contents of the Bible and totally doubts the Bible because they don’t really understand what it is and why it is made. Well, I should say that it’s their lost but then I simply care, so I decided to make this article for them to totally change their views about the Bible or the Holy Book of Life.
Bible was said to be made by different persons from different countries but it was originally founded totally and definitely by the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Why? It goes this way. It was founded by the Father, for everything existed because of the Father. Every little thing on Earth was made and created by our Father, God Almighty. Every story of our life, the date we were born, the place we would live was all written in the Book of Life. The bible was also founded by the Son, because Jesus Christ our Lord is the way to the true living. He is the way to the light, and absolutely He’s the way to our God. He was sent here on Earth to let us see the love of God for each and everyone of us. He is the reason why the Bible was said to be the Holy Book of Life, for we can only see the true essence of living if we would just read the contents of the Bible. Jesus Christ is the begotten son of our God Almighty, He is our Lord, our Savior, and whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16) Jesus Christ is the main topic of the Bible. He is everything we need in order to have an eternal life. Lastly, it was also founded by the Holy Spirit, because without the presence of the Holy Spirit there would be no Apostles who were used by Jesus to write and spread the Words of Wisdom or the Words of Life. The absence of the Holy Spirit would have put the world into its bitter end because the Holy Spirit is in everyone of us. The Holy Spirit lets the assigned people to do their works to continue spreading the Word’s of Life through the Book, The Holy Bible.
If you’re not convinced, try to read the Bible and you will realize that every word inside it was made very true and very expressive. The content of the Bible does not say directly its true meaning for it was made Holy and Sacred. It is hard to understand the Bible if you doubt it, it’s really hard to cope with every sentence that was written inside it but if you trust and believe our Lord Jesus Christ, you will understand everything about it, about yourself, about your life, about the reality, and about the Truth.
Here is one of the warning, please don’t doubt the Bible if you don’t want to be doubted in Heaven by our Lord, our Savior Jesus Christ and our Father, God Almighty.
Bible is not just a Book made by man. It is a Book of life made by our Father, our Savior, and the Holy Spirit.
Thank you for reading. I hope that you understand everything now about our Manual, the Holy Bible. That’s it, and that’s all. God bless you.
Today it’s just like an ordinary day.. I’m stressed and so tired.. There’s nothing new.. Its been a long time since I wrote my last article about moving on.. Unfortunately, I don’t know if I really moved on.. And now, it’s hard to find some free time to make new articles here.. I’m so busy with my life.. I want to rest but I can’t.. *Sigh…
It’s really hard to figure out why I can’t sleep early at night.. What am I thinking? What’s going on with me? Why don’t I have peace of mind? I can’t even figure out how to place my body on the bed.. It’s hard.. What should I do? I prayed last night but still I can’t fall asleep.. Is it about a girl? Or someone? Friendship? Chess Career? School? I wonder what it is.. Am I inlove or something? Or just having Infatuation? Now what?
*Sigh, I’m going insane.. Maybe I just need to heat some water and drink coffee.. I want to wake up… Anyway, Happy Valentines Day Everyone!
Tonight, I’m writing this letter right away. I can’t fall asleep. I can’t even close my eyes. I can’t even feel that I’m tired throughout this day. I really want to sleep but something’s bothering my mind. I want to think of that something but I can’t even identify it or think what I should do about it. This is crazy. Something bothers me for an unidentified reason. I can’t make a move without any idea about that something. I was about to go insane. I want to move on! I want to move forward! I want to forget these crazy little things, infatuations, lies and whatsoever.
I cannot take this no more! I want to live just as like my life before. I want to have a total change. A cool change that will make me stronger than what I am before and at the present. Tonight, I promise to myself, with all my heart and my soul that tomorrow will be a new day and a new start. Tomorrow will be the sunrise of my endless sunsets. I would like to thank my mom for being my inspiration in writing this one. She keeps on telling me to let go of things who makes me weak and I’m acting on it. I hope that today would be the last day of these bitter memories. I really want to move on! And I know that I can do it. Yeah I can do it! Thank you Lord for I know how to speak. Thank you for making me what I am today. Goodnight.
There are a lot of things that life offered me. There are a lot of reasons and expectations. Every single day I always find my way to breath and do my stuffs. I used to be a materialistic person but somehow I wanted to find my way back to real living. I hate what is happening to me. It’s been a long time since I worshipped Him so true. I must miss Him more, than missing the person I love most. I must miss Him than missing the games I used to play. I must miss His presence and gui dance. I must miss His love and care. I must miss His words that made me stand throughout each day. He’s really my true friend ever. No matter what I do He always guide me and even though I forget Him, He always remember me. He’s really there whenever I need Him. It’s really a moment to remember being with Him. He’s my Friend, my Father, my Lord and my Savior. I miss you, Jesus.
A while ago, I was in silence.I’ve been thinking of someone, someone whom I can’t be with. I felt my heart beats. I felt my heart cries. I felt my heart tears. I felt so weary, so alone and was about to lose myself inside. I love her but why can’t I be with her? Does age matter? Or age doesn’t really matter? **sigh** What’s going on with my heart? Am i just losing myself or I’m just truly falling inlove or just another crush?
I’m officially missing all the special memories in my past. It’s been a long long time since I learned to open my eyes in everything. I’m missing my friends, my teachers, and my peers. I want those happy memories back. I want to build myself once more. I want to feel the beats of my heart over again. I want to sense the determination of each and everyone of us as before. I want to see them laughing all over again. I want to cheer them up at another time. (more…)
My First Inspiration
It’s been a long time since I’ve met my first inspiration,
They opened my eyes in everything that is right inside our nation,
I’ve been too much enhanced by their nifty instructions,
So there should be no way for me to have some dejection.
I can still remember my childhood obligation,
It was just so easy and safe if I would just carefully follow their directions,
No need to endow all of my emotions,
I will just need to sit back, relax and get all the information.
When I’m alone, I always have them,
In time of depression, I just need to call them,
If everything goes wrong, they make me strong,
For now I can say that they are the vines where branches should belong.
They are my first teacher,
They are much better to be a professional speaker,
They do know what I feel as a troublemaker,
They’ll be my very first inspiration ever. (more…)
Kaibigan nasan ka na?
Saan ka nagpunta aking kaibigan?
Saan ka nagtungo’t anong pinuntahan?
Kay tagal ko nang naghanap doon at dyan,
Ngunit ‘ni anino mo’y ‘di masilayan.
Saan ka nagpunta aking kaibigan?
Pano na ako ‘pag kita’y kailangan?
Kay hirap maghanap ng maaasahan,
Na laging nandyan, oras ng kagipitan.
Kaibigan, kaibigan nasan ka na?
Anong dapat gawin upang ‘kay makita?
Halos mamaga na ang aking mga mata,
Dahil sa luhang puno ng alaala.
Bakit kaibigan ‘di ka na makita?
Saan nagpunta’t di ako isinama?
Nakalulungkot isipin at damdamin,
Umpisa pala’y langit na ang panimdim.
Freedom truly begins within my family
I’m growing old, the time passes me by,
I’ve seen many faces and heard many songs of lullaby.
I remembered my father, when he sang few songs for me,
It tells the fact, that first to consider is family.
I’ve once experienced, a true care that won’t lie,
And that makes me feel good in times I’m not fine.
Even in any sense of harm that comes into my life,
My mother was there so it’ll be alright.
My little brother was all alone, playing with that toy car,
He was playing anywhere, until that toy car reaches that far.
And that’s the time I realized, sooner we will be far apart,
So I closed my eyes and said that everything will be upright.
I can still remember (more…)
True Friend of mine
I am all alone,
Looking for someone to hold on to,
Looking for someone who will shelter me,
And looking for someone who will never leave me.
I walked around each fleeting days,
Seeking for a new friend but I failed.
There was never any single night comes to me,
That I’m not tired, hungry, and thirsty.
All I’ve got to do is to sleep,
To sleep and wake up again the following day,
Another day to stand with,
And another passage to travel with. (more…)
Ang buhay natin sa mundo bilang tao ay pansamantala lamang. Mabubuhay tayo at malauna’y mawawala rin. Marami tayong bagay na malalampasan at mga araw na pagdadaanan. Matututo tayong makihalubilo sa iba’t ibang tao. Matututo tayong magmahal ng wagas at napakatotoo. Matututo tayong tumayo sa mga sarili nating paa’t pagkatao. At higit sa lahat at aking ipinasasalamat ay natuto tayong mabuhay bilang isang tao na binigyan ng karapatan upang manatili, mangalaga at mabuhay ng matagal sa mundo. Yun lang naging makabuluhan ang buhay ko. (more…)
It is nice to live. It nice to see beautiful things that surround us. It is nice to see the creations of God. It is nice to see the beauty of the nature. The wonderful sky, the beautiful sunrise and sunset, the stars, shooting stars, the moon, and many more. We were very fortunate for we can see those things. I know you can read this for you can see all the text that I wrote.
It is better to have one eye to see those things but it is really much better to have two eyes to look at them. But anyhow, in life some of us were born handicapped. They are unable to see, to hear and to speak. With this, I would like to emphasize those people who cannot see the wonderful creations.
I wonder how those blind people react to our daily life situation. I wonder how do they see things in a beautiful way. I wonder how do they see love better than the capabality of a normal person to see it. (more…)
I am
엠마누엘 잔 살라살
or
Emmanuel John Salazar
and known as
emjozar...
►I'm just a simple tad. You can call me emjo, john, em, emz, or anything you wanted...
►I'm a chess player, and I love this game. Aside from it I prefer playing basketball, badminton and many more.
►I used to make poems, play the guitar, read books, sing, compose a song, and listen to music when I feel so sad and weary...
►If you want to know me more, come one, let us be friends :)
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napadaan lang
kuya ems, nagpalit ka na ba ng cellphone #?
I know that you’re not an emo. I’m just kidding!!! Emo pertains to a kind of genre and you’re not a genre…Harhar!!!
it is hard to let go of someone you have hold on to before… the fact that you have let go is not because you’re coward but you just have the stregth to accept the realities.. nice post! more powers! Godbless
white heart???
emo???
keep it up…
more power & GOD bless…
nice blog kua.
hahahaha….auq nga…txt nlng..un pa rin ba n0. moh? daya mo kz di ka nagre2ply eh…
thanks thanks, comment kayo sa articles
ui, hehe, eva, pls leave your email here, add kita sa facebook
student sa God vs. science… si eva rico 2!! haha…muzta kuya emjo?
very INSPIRING Mr. kuyainspirationsaviordiary!
gnda ng site m kua emj xD adek sa photoshop )
blog hop.. nice blog.. ^^
:) musta…
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malapit na matapos ung isang sem..
weh…
ung pustahan natin ah..
joke..
ei boss… may naskakacrush sau… hmmmm.. nice nmn un..
o siya..
cge po… tc nlng.. godbless…
@ marions, student san? @ kei, thanks
si albert einstein daw ung student jan….
Thanks for the visit. Nice blog.
haaay umuulan na namn oh!
naaalala n nmn kita eh.. alam mo nmn na sa tuwing umuulan ikaw un naiiicp ko..
magparamdam ka naman…. miss na kita hmmmm..
wen cud i read ur another blog.. im excited!
missing you so much!
take care Godbless!!
more powers..
always be happy!
spellbinding!!!
God bless!
stay happy olweis! tapos na ung post ko! haha wag mu ng basahin
tc
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